Day 1

I'm not sure it was a good day... food wise that is.
I started off pretty good, went bad and then good again. Several problems I am facing; 1. I wait until I'm really hungry to eat and then I make bad choices. I know that is not the way to do it. They say to eat small meals throughout the day so that you are never starving. I just forget. 2. I eat something bad and then I just decide that it ruins the day and I might as well eat bad for the rest of the day and start over the next day. I also know this isn't smart. Just because I eat something I shouldn't, doesn't mean I should just go nuts for the rest of the day.
3. I'm not willing to give up the glass of wine in the evening. I love my glass of wine. I justify it as good for my health. But, I find that once I have that glass of wine, I start making bad food choices. IF I have 2 glasses, things really go downhill.
So today I started with 2 packs of instant cream of wheat and 3 cups of coffee. Not too bad. around 10am I had a cereal bar. Still not bad. But then the conference calls started. I was starving during my 11am call. It ran long and when I got off of the call I only had 15 minutes until my 1230 call. So I grabbed the leftover macaroni and cheese that was enough for 2 meals and ate all of it while on my 2nd call. I felt really guilty the entire time I was eating it ;( I need to drop the guilt. Then I had a couple of other calls and headed down to Stockton. Finished my P&AP investigation and decided that I was too hungry to drive all the way home without eating. I knew I would do fast food if I didn't eat. I got our fruit and cheese plate which is 380 calories. But I didn't eat the crackers. Just the fruit and cheese. I'm hoping that at least saved the 80 calories. Ugggh. I got home and was still hungry. I think I have a tape worm!!! I just now ate a piece of salmon that had a soy sauce glaze, a spinach salad (just spinach, pear and 1 triangle of 30 calorie laughing cow cheese.) and some sauteed asparagus. Now if I can just make it through the night without eating anything else, I'll be good.
No exercise today. It was raining when I got home so I couldn't walk the dogs. I have 2 more hours of work to do before I can call it a night. The wii fit will have to wait until tomorrow.
uggghhhh this is hard.